Shooting (14)
If I told myself it was just a dream, maybe my heart would feel lighter. If I convinced myself it was a nightmare, maybe I could enjoy it without guilt. But the debauchery unfolding right in front of me was far too vivid, too sharp, too real—and yet utterly unreal. It was the kind of mating even an animal would turn its head from in disgust. I didn’t want to become like that. Never. I refused to be the same as you.
“Mmph…”
Yet what filled my mouth was the exact same thing Hinami was sucking on. Why? Why couldn’t I push away the hand pressing down on my head? It wasn’t delicious at all—bitter, fishy, repulsive enough to make me want to vomit right then and there. Why was I licking a glans smeared with the fluids of both sexes? Why did my head feel like it was floating while my tongue worked over it?
“Hehe… mm, hngh…”
Hinami, who had been licking the shaft beside me, slid lower to avoid me and began noisily sucking on his balls. Though the hair had been shaved smooth, it was still a sack I never wanted in my mouth. Giggling under the man’s stroking hand, she glanced at me, licked his balls with almost competitive vulgarity, then rubbed her cheek against his groin.
The grotesque sight made my tongue freeze for a moment. The man looking down at us pressed my head harder with his hand and, at some point, began recording my struggling face with my own phone.
…What kind of video had been left on my phone? If I deleted it, could I treat everything that happened today as nothing more than a nightmare? While I clung to that empty hope, Hinami’s constant giggling shattered it in an instant.
“Oppa, film me too…”
She was even flashing a V-sign with her fingers, clearly enjoying being recorded. If it had been just the two of us, maybe I could have buried it somehow. But with her here, there was no way to dismiss tonight’s events as a nightmare and erase them. She was the kind of girl who would hand her own leash to Kang Juhyuk with her own hands—and try to force mine onto him as well.
…I could no longer escape them.
“Heh, hehe… Ah, I’ll go get some water.”
The pressure on my head lifted. Hinami naturally pulled away from his groin and left the room. I also moved away, lightly rubbing my aching jaw, and looked up at him with tear-filled eyes.
…His face looked not just pleased, but faintly unhinged. He had already come three times, yet his cock showed no sign of shrinking. Still stiff, almost rigid. I took a step back from it and carefully spoke to him as he looked at my phone.
“…A condom.”
“What?”
“Use a condom. Please…”
…I didn’t want to end up the same as Hinami. She could take care of contraception herself with pills or whatever, so she could act like that. But I couldn’t. If he thrust that deep and came inside me until it overflowed, just like I’d seen earlier… no matter how I thought about it, my body wouldn’t stay unharmed.
There was no way to calm this man down anyway. I simply picked up a condom that had rolled across the floor to protect myself, and even though he hadn’t asked, tried to put it on him.
“Stop.”
“…”
He grabbed my wrist as I was putting the condom on and whispered with a smirk.
“I’ll only fuck you if you put the condom on. I won’t do it with Hinami. …Still want to put it on?”
“…What if I don’t?”
“That… we’ll see when the time comes.”
Only two choices. Let him fuck me with a condom on… or pray he wouldn’t rape me without one. I held my breath for a moment, but there was only one answer I could give.
“If you wanted it that badly, you should’ve said so.”
“…Shut up.”
I shook off his hand from my wrist and stretched the condom over his cock until it clung tightly. No matter how I thought about it, I couldn’t trust him. He might fuck Hinami and then shove it into me right before coming. I wasn’t stupid enough to play Russian roulette with my own womb. Even if my body, mind, and pride all collapsed, I didn’t want to lose my dignity as a woman.
“Oppa, here’s the water.”
“Oh, thanks…”
Unlike me, Hinami—who had already thrown away her dignity as a woman—returned to the room the moment the condom was on, acting cute as she handed him the cup. He gulped the water down, then suddenly frowned and pulled the cup away from his mouth.
“…You drink it too. You look thirsty.”
“…”
He handed me the half-finished water and wiped his mouth. I also wanted to wash away the bitter taste still in my mouth, so I gulped it down—
“…Ugh…! Keck, keck, kahak…!”
…The sharp burn of alcohol scorched my throat, stealing my breath along with the fishy taste. It was soju. Strong soju. This was my house, yet I had no idea where the alcohol had come from. I coughed violently from the burning pain until Hinami, who had come to my side, patted my back and helped me catch my breath.
“Give me what’s left. It’s mine anyway, so let me drink it.”
“…Hey, you…”
“Why? That wine was something I bought a long time ago too. You two drank it all without me.”
The owner of the alcohol smiled brightly at my suffering, snatched the cup with the last sip left, and poured the final drop into his own mouth. Then, just like me, he coughed in agony, his face turning bright red in an instant as he looked at me with a lewd grin.
Staring straight into my eyes while reeking of alcohol, Hinami suddenly burst into loud laughter—then, without any warning, grabbed the back of my neck and licked the alcohol still wet on my lips and tongue.
“Mmph…! Phuh. Hey, you, are you cra—mmph…!”
The scent of alcohol filled my mouth and nose. That dizzying smell, strangely sharp with rice fragrance, made my head spin and my breath catch. I tried to push her shoulders away out of instinctive revulsion, but whether from exhaustion or intoxication, she wouldn’t budge. Having already had my first kiss stolen by Kang Juhyuk, and now my first kiss with another woman stolen by Hinami, I could only glare at her as she pulled away, a long string of saliva stretching between us while I barely held back my nausea.
“…Jia, you’re really bad at kissing. I was surprised.”
“Hey, you fucking—”
“Don’t get so mad. I feel gross right now too.”
I wanted to slap her shameless cheek after she’d shoved her tongue in, but Hinami quickly hid behind Kang Juhyuk, stuck out her tongue glistening with both women’s saliva, and this time tangled it stickily with the man’s. It was a much more synchronized, obscene kiss than the one she’d given me. While kissing him, she stroked the condom-covered cock I had put on, mixing tongues until she was nearly breathless, then pulled away with a satisfied smile and whispered into his ear.
“…As expected, Oppa kisses better.”
“Isn’t that obvious?”
“Well, still. Kissing a girl wasn’t bad either. …But a man is better, right?”
She whispered loud enough for me to hear, snatched the phone from Kang Juhyuk’s hand, and replayed the video she had just recorded. Her already flushed face turned even redder as she chattered excitedly to him.
“Ah, our fans would love this. …There are tons of fans who ship me and Jia as a couple. If this leaked, our popularity might actually go up.”
“Then upload it. …It’s not that lewd since you’re still wearing tops anyway.”
“Hngh… But I can’t stand the thought of dating rumors with her. It’s physiologically impossible. …Just keep it for yourself, Oppa.”
“Why would I need to keep footage of girls kissing?”
“Your dick’s honest, so why are you like this? Our Juhyuk Oppa… You got hard, didn’t you? Heh, heh. Seeing two idols whose virginities you took mixing tongues like that—your cock looks like it’s about to explode, right?”
“…”
Her aegyo was so disgusting, treating me like nothing more than a tool to get him hard. The bitter alcohol taste still lingering in my mouth made me nauseous. …I walked up to him while he was staring at Hinami.
“Mmph… hngh. Phuh…”
I pushed the alcohol-mixed saliva into his mouth.
“…What?”
Staring at his rarely flustered face, I grabbed his arm and placed it on my chest.
“Don’t listen to that bitch. …Have sex with me.”
“…”
My leash.
“…Give it to me.”
…Of my own will. I handed it over. Because I was too angry at her playing with me. …No matter how I thought about it, at least physically, I was better than her.
“…Get on all fours.”
But unlike him, who turned his gaze to me and gave the command, Hinami’s eyes widened for a moment before she quickly curved her eyes into a smile.
“Then I’ll film it for you.”
She moved excitedly without a trace of regret, then looked down at me.
“If you do it rougher than when you fucked me, I’ll get mad, okay? …Ah, but then Jia will break. Puhuhu…”
As if she wouldn’t feel jealous even if I had sex with him, she stood with her feet on the floor and watched with intrigued eyes as I lay face-down on the bed with only my upper body.
“…Ugh…”
I tried to glare back at her condescending gaze, wanting to get back at her somehow—
“Ah, this looks uncomfortable. I’ll take it off for you, Jia.”
“Ugh… Hey, you—”
…She casually stripped off my top and sat right on my back.
“Puhuhu… Ah… hngh…”
While he was fucking me, she tangled tongues with him just like before, making the same vulgar sounds.