The Video I Never Wanted to See Again
I didn’t want to watch any more. Not because I hated seeing my friend like that. It was something else entirely.
“…Do you really not need any foreplay?”
“Not necessary.”
“Ah… Haeun unnie already sucked you off…”
“Shut up.”
The person I once thought was just like me. A colleague. An idol who had stood on the same stage as me only a few days ago.
“Ah, ahaha. Oppa, you really can’t hold back anymore…?”
“…Could you, if you were me?”
“Ehehe, well… I wouldn’t know since I’m not a guy… But still, to a man like that.”
“Wait, hold on. It looks like it’ll hurt, so please wait a little…”
To a guy who isn’t even that handsome. Who isn’t kind. Whose only redeeming quality is his cock.
“Pushing it in so forcefully like that… it feels like it’ll tear me and I’ll bleed…”
“…So?”
“Ahaha, you must be crazy. You’re really going to shove a cock thicker than that dildo into a virgin pussy…?”
Little by little. Slowly. The sight of her being violated.
His height difference is over thirty centimeters… and his cock reaches all the way to her navel. This…
The image of an idol who belonged to everyone falling and becoming nothing more than one man’s woman.
“Ah, ahha… Even if you rub the head like that, it’s not going in, I told you…?”
“…Then let’s play rock-paper-scissors. One, two.”
“Ah, wait a second. …I lost? That was so sudden…!”
It was too vulgar.
“Heh. Hehehe. I said no more… haa. See? It’s impossible, right…? There isn’t even a trace of nobility left in her.”
“One more time.”
“Ah. Yap… Ah, I won…!”
There wasn’t even a trace of purity left in her.
“…One more time.”
“Hehe, no matter how many times… I said it won’t work… Ah. I lost again… ngh…!”
Her toes curling and trembling in time with that man’s movements.
“Huu, haa… Physically. Impossible. It won’t fit…”
“…Hey.”
“Yes…?”
“You’re less tight than Haeun. …You are.”
“…No way. That can’t be…”
“You’re so fucking soft, so don’t worry. …And since you’re a massive pervert too, it probably won’t hurt at all.”
I rubbed my sleepy eyes, forcing them open. The way her toes looked reminded me of my own when I sat in the studio fighting off sleep. I didn’t want to see any more of it.
“So let’s bet everything on this last one. …Rock, paper.”
“Scissors…”
“…Looks like I won again. Lucky me.”
The girl who ate the same meals as me. Slept in the same room. Practiced together. Became an idol just like me.
“Ah. It hurts, it hurts so much…?”
“You can’t even handle this much?”
“Th-that’s not… it, but…”
The sight of her turning into a woman.
“Heek, heee… Ah, Oppa. Juhyuk Oppa…”
The moment her coquettish voice echoed through the room, I immediately turned off the monitor and collapsed onto the bed behind me. I didn’t even remember whose bed it was.
“Sorry, I was being naughty… so please forgive me… Just go a little slower…”
“Shouldn’t you be apologizing to someone else?”
Even as I buried my face in the pillow, that vulgar sound didn’t stop.
“I-I’m sorryyy… haak, ah. Ngh…!”
“To who?”
No matter how deeply I pulled the blanket over my head.
“To my fans, everyone…”
The sound of her tarnishing the name of idol.
“What?”
“I’m an idol… yet I’m sucking cock. And I’m so happy about it…♡”
It kept gnawing at my ears. Over and over.
“I have a schedule tomorrow… but I’m having sex… with a man. I’m a ruined idol… I’m so sorry…♡”
It gnawed at my heart too.
“…Your fans would get insanely turned on if they saw this anyway.”
It treated the life I had worked so hard for like a joke.
“Heh, hehe… R-really…?”
“If you want, I can even spread it on Twitter or something.”
“B-but… If it gets found out, I won’t be an idol anymore…”
I had always worried that if our relationship was ever exposed, it would be a disaster.
“…Then I’ll spread it once your contract ends in a few years.”
“…Yes♡.”
What if she made an extreme choice? What would happen to our group? How would I have to explain it? And what about my sister? Even if I hated her, family was still family.
“Haa, ah… Ah. Wait. Oppa, Juhyuk Oppa…!”
…All those pointless worries.
“You crazy perverted bitch…”
I couldn’t handle any more of this.
“Haak, haa… I’m really… getting fucked…”
“Heh, hehe…”
Every time I heard that wet, squelching sound, my resolve crumbled.
“Th-there… Juhyuk Oppa…”
“Shut up.”
What the hell had I been doing all this time? Every single member around me was obsessed with men and losing their minds.
“Ah, idol pussy… It’s my first time, but once it’s opened… you get this wet? Haak. O-ohh…♡”
It wasn’t just Hinami. The other unnies were probably the same, if not worse.
“W-wait… You didn’t even put on a condom…”
Was all that love for the fans just a lie? Was friendship, camaraderie, all of it just sweet lip service?
“…There’s no way a perverted slut like you would seduce someone without even taking drugs, right?”
“Haak, ah. I-I’m exposed…♡”
I couldn’t trust anyone anymore. Not even the one person I thought I could believe in. Not even my only blood-related older sister. Seeing her like this…
“H-haa… Can we stop filming now…?”
“…You’re already recording from behind anyway.”
“That’s true, but still…”
It would have been better if I had been born a man. Then maybe I could have been in Kang Juhyuk’s position. Embracing all those sparkling women, breaking them endlessly without a shred of guilt, drowning in pleasure.
“U-heh… My breasts. They’re… surprisingly big, right…?”
“For a damn brat.”
“H-hehe. You’re getting hard for this brat…! Haak. Hue…♡”
If I had lived like a child too, without any burdens, just living my age… it would have been so much easier.
“P-phe… Ah. Aren’t you going to kiss me…?”
“….”
My first kiss was still there… Mmph…
If I had gone to a normal school, enjoyed a normal youth, dated normally.
“Mmph… Ngh…! Mmm……♡”
Without being crushed by stress or smothered by pleasure.
“Hngh… Pphe. Chuup……♡”
Even if he was a little plain, someone completely different from that man. A kind person.
“Puhhaa… Ah. Oh… Ngh, huu…♡”
Even if he was around my height, it wouldn’t matter. If I could have loved someone innocently… it would have been nice.
“Haaaa… Ah. Inside, it’s inside me…♡”
“…Fuck. This bitch really…”
I couldn’t take it anymore. All men. Maybe even some women. They would all look at me the same way Juhyuk was looking at Hinami right now. As an object to conquer.
“I have filming tomorrow… If you fill my womb with semen… it won’t be good…♥”
I didn’t care about understanding anymore. There was no one left who would understand the idol named Seo Jia.
“Oh… Huu… Ha, haa… Heh. Hehe…”
To them. Even to my fans. I was nothing but something to be consumed.
“…I told you… you couldn’t cum inside… Heh. Hehe…”
I didn’t want to shine anymore. I didn’t want to sparkle anymore. If that was the final form of that brilliance… I didn’t need it. I would rather die than end up like that.
“Slurp, slurp…”
It wasn’t wide enough to swim in comfortably, but compared to a bathtub it was dozens of times larger. I lay in the pension’s indoor pool, where even warm water flowed, leaning lightly against the wall. In the distance, I watched the two of them floating on tubes, lazily sipping coffee through straws.
“Haeun unnie. Can I have a sip of your coffee too?”
“…Here.”
“Ah, thank you.”
Watching them in bikinis was quite a pleasant sight, but right now I had something far more interesting to focus on.
“…”
I never imagined the CCTV in my room would capture something like this.
“Ah, but do you really need a tube, unnie?”
“I can’t swim.”
“No, with all that fat you’d float even without one… Ow! That hurts!”
“Want to die?”
“I was complimenting your big breasts, that’s too mean.”
I still hadn’t told the two of them who were happily chatting away.
At first, when I heard the notification that the front door had opened, I thought maybe I had forgotten to lock it. I checked the CCTV just in case… and there she was.
“Anyway, since I let you touch them, can I touch yours too?”
“…Are you into that?”
“No? I’m just curious about beautiful bodies. That’s why I like Oppa so much.”
“Gross. You’re such a pervert.”
“Hmm, then I’ll go touch Oppa’s hard chest instead…”
“…No.”
I hadn’t originally installed the cameras to catch a thief. After seeing how Hinami had covered her own house in CCTV, I thought it might be good to put up a few myself. There was a special kind of lewdness that could only be felt from those particular angles, after all.
…But even I couldn’t have imagined it would lead to this.
“…Oh. As expected. The texture is really different from mine. It’s soft… but also kind of chewy. Firmer than me?”
“…You really are a total pervert.”
“I don’t want to hear that from someone who’s done outdoor sex.”
“Hey, when did you…!”
“Eh, what? It was true? …You always wear a choker even outside, so I was just guessing.”
“…”
What the hell was wrong with this woman?
She barged into someone else’s house without permission, somehow cracked my computer password, rummaged through my precious videos, then suddenly turned off the monitor, crawled into my bed, and pulled the blanket over her head.
“Ah, Oppa. What are you doing over there all alone? Aren’t you bored?”
“Just a moment. I have something to watch.”
“Eh, are you watching something dirty? …When there are two girls right in front of you?”
“I’m busy deleting comments like ‘I want to grab Haeun by her twin tails, shove my cock down her throat, and feed her cum,’ so just wait a bit.”
“Ah, yes sir.”
I gave a suitable excuse and kept my distance from them, continuing to watch the homeowner who had barged into her tenant’s space without permission.
By now she had thrown off the blanket. Even in the mediocre video quality, I could clearly see that the woman’s eyes were completely empty.