Secret (4)
The woman standing in front of me. …She’s bolder than I expected. Even if she had figured it out, I never thought she’d come at me like this.
“I left something at home. Is there a problem with that?”
“If that’s the case, should I bring it for you? It’s my house too, after all.”
“….”
I’d heard it from Hinami. She seemed to have gone through my phone. She probably saw that photo I sent last time. Well, it was bound to come out eventually, so I hadn’t paid it much mind.
…That said, this unpleasant feeling doesn’t suddenly become pleasant just because of that.
After hearing the schedule, I’d rested yesterday and the day before. Honestly, I was a bit pent-up. In more ways than one.
“…No answer, huh. What exactly did you leave behind?”
Her malice presses directly against my skin—prickly, delivered in that low, measured voice. Well, from her perspective I’m human trash that shouldn’t exist twice in this world. The scum who seduced her older sister and fucks her every single day. The legendary womanizer who lured her friend into rolling around with us too. It would be harder for her to feel any goodwill toward me….
“Your sister.”
“Pardon?”
“…I left Haeun behind, so I’m taking her with me. Is that not allowed?”
…As for me. I don’t particularly like you either. After all, you also hold some of the blame for what happened to my shoulder.
“Unnie said she had plans with Hinami.”
“Ah, well. I have plans with her too. Why?”
“…I’m very curious what kind of appointment you made with two women.”
“You sure have a lot of interest in other people’s private lives. You do too.”
“Because they aren’t other people. Both of them…. Wait. Why are you getting in?”
“Since Jia isn’t getting off. I need to go up.”
I fire back with the same edge at the woman bristling with thorns and glaring at me, then step into the elevator. No matter how much money she has or how rich her social experience, she’s still just a girl barely twenty. Younger than the female college students who work part-time at our store.
“…What are you going to do once you’re up there?”
“Have sex. …What else would there be to do?”
“….”
If I say it this openly, it means she doesn’t know how to fight back. She’s still a kid unused to this kind of dirty talk.
“You have your own private life, don’t you? Hinami and Haeun have their private lives too. So why do you have to pry and poke at every little—”
“Are you crazy…?”
“What?”
“Right now, in front of me. Boldly saying the three of you are going to….”
“Is that not allowed?”
Even Hinami—who was a pervert among perverts—had fantasies about sex. Even Seo Haeun, who hadn’t realized she was a pervert, held some illusions about it. This woman is dozens of times more strait-laced than either of them. From what I hear everywhere, she even has a strong sense of professionalism. Clearly a pure friend who has never even dated.
…A woman for whom simply thinking about sex in a casual way is impossible.
“…What does it have to do with you that people like that hang out together?”
“It’s my… house. That place. It’s in my name.”
“Then I can just kick you out. If I tell you to get out, I’ll leave. If I do, well…. I can rent a room from Hinami and the three of us can live there. Or sleep lightly with Haeun at the gym.”
“….”
Without touching her physically at all. Just looking down openly at her—who is quite tall for a woman—slowly pushing her toward the wall. In a low, thick voice, with my original tone stripped of any mask, I spit the words at her.
“…Are you playing with my sister? Playing with Hinami. You.”
“Why do you think I’m playing with anyone? …Don’t you think I’m serious about both of them?”
“That’s nonsense….”
“It makes sense. …You saw it too, didn’t you?”
“That was…!”
Playing with them or not—I almost laughed at that childish idea, but bit my lip and held it back. …You must have seen it too. That photo.
“I don’t know why you’re acting like this after going through someone else’s phone without permission…. I was a bit flustered thinking she’d read it and ignored me, you know?”
“….”
“…If you saw it, you know. It’s just that kind of relationship. I don’t know if there were people like that around you or not. There are people like this too.”
Since the three of us are naked and rubbing against each other, this isn’t cheating or an affair. We’re just enjoying it. Me, Haeun, and Hinami.
“…Do you realize that if this gets out, you won’t even be able to make excuses?”
“The ones who can’t make excuses aren’t me or Haeun. …It’s only Hinami who can’t. I had no intention of including her.”
“Then why….”
“She approached first. She seduced first. I embraced her as she wanted, and Haeun was okay with it. What exactly is the problem? …Should I have refused because she’s an idol? I wasn’t even her fan originally.”
As if dumbfounded. But as if she has nothing left to say. I take one more step closer to her—mouth slightly open, staring at me like I’m an alien. There’s nowhere left to avoid now. No place left to run.
“…Don’t pay so much attention to other people’s private lives. This is the result of you meddling too much.”
“…What is that supposed to mean.”
“Your shoulder. …Ah, but you might not even remember? It was everything to me, but nothing special to you.”
“….”
As if she really doesn’t remember well. …Then as if she barely recalls it. And then, as if she finally understands. The fear and terror directed at me gradually reverses, and her eyes fill once more with the same hostility as before.
“…Is this revenge? Because my dad got you released?”
“If there’s a man who seduces a daughter for revenge, that would be an interesting world. …It’s not that. I just approached because I liked her, and I didn’t even know you were involved….”
“The reason you were released wasn’t because of Dad. It’s just that you….”
“Hey.”
…I too. The anger I had suppressed for several years. The emotion I thought I had poured out completely to Haeun.
“What did you just say?”
“Just that you have bad work ethic and a promiscuous private life, so—Kyaa! Why are you taking it off? Are you crazy?”
“…What about this?”
I immediately throw off the t-shirt I was wearing. The body I had silently honed with my ruined shoulder, refusing every woman who wanted to meet through DM, even when my seniors nagged about why a pitcher was building so much muscle.
“You know because you’re an idol and starve every day, right? You can still say that after seeing this body?”
…As for me, fuck. It’s not like I never tried to live diligently. I tried throwing with my other hand too. In high school I swung the bat hard even though I wasn’t outstanding. No matter what crazy shit I did, the twenty kilometers of lost velocity never came back, and I cried a few times with this bear-like build.
“…I have no grudge against your dad. It’s my fault for getting ruined after only one year of pitching. Honestly, aren’t there more fans for other teams than that one? If it hadn’t been destroyed, the value would have gone up, and if I’d been traded it would have been a blessing. But….”
…But. What? Hearing one rumor and ruining a person. What exactly is wrong with that?
“What the hell do you know about me to say shit like that? …What exactly do you know about me?”
“…Human trash. Meeting two women….”
“…Crazy bitch.”
…What a fucking lunatic. There’s a limit to not feeling fear. To be able to spit those words right in the face of a shirtless, furious man who has her pinned against the wall and is growling at her. I almost want to compliment her. With that kind of nerve, she can say such things to someone whose life was ruined by a single word from her.
“Think carefully. …It’s only this much because I’m holding myself back. If you met another guy it would already be a complete mess.”
“Bullshit… don’t say that.”
“If it sounds like bullshit, then find a decent man you know besides me. …Do you think I won’t show it? When I can have such a pretty woman by my side. I don’t hide what I do with your sister either. …I’m just being considerate of your friend.”
“….”
“Ah, the gym. Use it whenever you want. It increases the membership when you come, so it’s good for me. I’ll let you in for free. You must come. One more time next time.”
I glance at her—who still refuses to shrink from me—pick up the t-shirt I threw off, turn my back on Seo Jia, and head back to my house where they are waiting. Ignoring the gaze boring into my back the entire way. Walking toward the place where the women who want me are waiting.
…Wondering whether I could turn that crazy bitch into one of them too. I keep thinking about it.
…Crazy bastard. I’ve never met a person like that in my life. There’s a limit to being audacious. Living off someone else’s house. Having violated the homeowner’s sister and her friend, and now threatening me.
…Should I kill him? How can I kill him socially?
…No, let’s calm down. It’s not important to screw that man over. What’s important is that my position and the efforts I’ve built up until now don’t collapse.
“Crazy fucker….”
In the end I couldn’t stop that man from boldly entering where Unnie and Hinami were, and I returned upstairs. I sweated so much cold sweat that even while showering his lunatic face kept floating up and I kept sweating again.
…It’s the first time I’ve received this kind of treatment in my life. It’s also the first time seeing someone harbor such clear malice toward me. There were people who envied or were jealous of me, but he was the first to openly say he simply dislikes Seo Jia as a person.
“…Ha.”
I sweep a hand down my chest that refuses to calm and keep thinking about how to make him behave. Persuading Unnie or Hinami will be difficult. Unnie doesn’t like me much to begin with, and Hinami isn’t the type to listen to me.
Simply exposing everything that’s happened so far is also impossible. That would only damage me and Hinami while that man has nothing to lose.
Then… rather use myself as bait….
“…No.”
…That’s not it. Even if he does something to me and I sue him with that, the fact that I got involved in such a scandal itself is my loss. Simply holding a weakness without reporting it… is no different from now.
If not me, then someone else. The coordinator unnie? …No. That unnie won’t catch his eye anymore. The group unnies? …They’re the same as Hinami. They won’t listen to me, and the scandal breaking itself is the problem.
Then….
“Ah.”
…That person. She didn’t seem bad. The part-timer who worked at that man’s gym. Her face was decent. Her figure was okay too. Above all, she seemed to be my fan. And… didn’t that man hire her himself, that woman?
…It means she met his standards, right?
“….”
Since he’s a man who can’t be satisfied with one woman. Clearly. If the opportunity arises, he’ll obviously try to touch her. Even if somehow Unnie accepted up to Hinami… Hinami was originally acquainted with Unnie, so let’s say she understood.
If one more is added, can that relationship really be maintained normally?
…There’s no way. It has to collapse. That vulgar and dirty relationship.