Meditation
…Damn. This is even better than I thought.
The stimulation running the whole length of my cock was especially intense. Rahi's precious place cradled the head, her cleft rode the shaft above it, and the tight, straining grip of her thighs sent a sharp thrill all the way up into my waist. As her movements and my thrusts began to fall into the same rhythm, the sensation only grew, and because I was driving roughly along her underside, Rahi broke into moans and her body started to lock up.
"Hah… ahh… L-like this…? Is this right…?"
"Yeah. Feels good, doesn't it?"
"…Yes. Hnn… D-do you like it, Shinwoo…? D-down here… does it feel good…?"
"Yeah. It feels great. Want to keep going?"
"…Thank goodness. Yes… hnn… ahhh!"
Whether my words had given her confidence or not, the roll of Rahi's hips grew bolder by the moment. Panting, she instinctively sought out the places that felt best for her, and little by little our movements began to lock together. As expected, she had a talent for this.
"Ahh, hnn, hah— Shinwoo! Kiss me, please kiss me…"
"Come here."
Rahi started snapping her hips, and her movements turned wilder still. Her waist was clenched hard, her rhythm beginning to slip—she was getting close. I could have held on a little longer, but it was morning and we didn't have much time. I had no intention of dragging it out.
She turned her head and begged for my mouth. I tasted her lips as they came, slowly driving my hips up to meet her, and Rahi, growing used to the position, snapped her waist in time with me. As her movements broke into something fiercer and more ragged, I pulled her in tight and thrust harder. In a position like this, I had no reason at all to hold back.
"Ahk! Hah! Mmn— Shinwoo! Hnn, ahh!"
"I'm close too."
"Hhk, hah— ahh! Hah! This is too— ahhh! Hnn! Mmn!"
"Right?"
"Yes, yes! Ahk, hah! Mmn, nnh, hnn, I-I think I'm going to— ahh!"
"Yeah. Me too."
"Hnn, hah, ahh! Ahhhh! Hah! Haaah! Ahhhhh!"
The moment Rahi's body went rigid and she couldn't move anymore, her thighs clamped hard around my cock, and I let the orgasm go. Even as the pleasure burst through me, I clenched my teeth and drew back a little. It wasn't that I was worried about semen spilling out.
…I hope it actually does something. If it doesn't, then it doesn't.
The basis was thin—nothing more than a guess—but I knew for certain that when I finished outside, the semen absorbed through the body had some kind of effect. I was wondering whether there might be effects beyond changes to skin and appearance. If not, then not. I could just as easily tell myself it had been easier to wipe up, and leave it at that.
"Hnn, haaah… I-it's hot… Shinwoo…"
She panted as if it were a waste, watching me spill thickly into the cleft between her thighs, but I said nothing. I only turned her face and kissed her.
"Haa…"
"Was it good?"
"…Yes… Was it… good for you too…?"
"Yeah. Look how much came out. Your thighs were the best, Rahi."
"…Then why didn't you… do it inside…"
"You're not ovulating for a while anyway. We ought to enjoy it when we can."
"…That's true, but… i-it feels better when you finish inside…"
"That's for me to decide."
At the whisper Rahi flinched, then looked back at me with fear and worry mingled in her eyes. I grinned at that look and leaned in again.
"Your period's over now."
"…Ah… Then… then for the next few days, because of me…"
That wasn't what I'd meant at all. She looked at me as if she'd been moved, and tears welled in her eyes.
"Shinwoo… Kiss me…"
"…All right."
She held my gaze without wavering, asking for the kiss, and I quietly pressed my lips to hers. Still looking back at me, she whispered.
"…Are you going to torment me again…?"
"Yeah. I'm thinking about how to torment you right now."
"…I can't wait."
"Let's have fun with it."
"…Yes… Thank goodness…"
"What is?"
"…I thought… I thought I'd done something wrong…"
"No way."
I reached out and gently took her breast, and Rahi curled in on herself all at once, trembling.
"Ahhnn… Shinwoo…"
"Want a kiss?"
"Yes… mm…"
I kissed her once more, then immediately gave her ass a light smack. By now some of it ought to have been absorbed.
"Hnn?!"
"Let's wash up. We're actually going to be late."
"…Okay…"
"Hold on."
I watched her watching me for a cue, then pulled a thick wad of tissues from the box beside us and carefully wiped between her legs. Every brush made her sensitive body flinch, and desire started crawling up in me again, but my attention stayed fixed on whether she was in pain.
"I-I'll do it…"
"Stay still."
"…Ah… hnn…"
It was a different picture from the declaration that I was going to torment her, but only the form was different. There was no way I would handle Rahi carelessly. With a gentle hand I slowly wiped away the traces of what we'd just done, and on her face there was no pain at all.
"…You said you were going to torment me."
"This is different. I'm wiping up what's mine."
"…Yes. What's yours… please make it pretty…"
She parted her legs a little as she said it, and the move caught me off guard enough that a short laugh escaped me. The embarrassment written all over her face was impossible to miss, and down there didn't seem to hurt nearly as much as I'd expected. Even a man stings a little if a tissue catches wrong. If she'd been swollen, she wouldn't have been making a face like that.
Does it actually work?
Unbelievable—but it was still too soon to be sure. I'd know if I stimulated her again later at the gym, as if I were only teasing. If there really was an effect, I'd be grateful. I didn't want Rahi spending the day in pain, fretting over how she felt down there.
"All right. Hurry and wash up. I'll put the coffee on."
"…Okay… I want to stay like this a little longer, though…"
"Then… want to shower together?"
"…Yes."
"Wait, seriously?"
"I-I haven't tried it, but… I want to wash you."
For a second my expectations shot up, and my cock jabbed straight into Rahi's ass. She must have felt it. A moan slipped out of her, and she swallowed hard.
"No. I won't be able to hold back. And if we actually do that, we'll be late. Shower. Got it?"
"…Okay…"
"We'll do it together next time. I'm looking forward to it too."
"Yes… I-I'm sorry. I can't hold it in…"
"Hm? Mmn…"
But she didn't get off the bed. She turned, threw her arms around my neck in one motion, and kissed me. I tossed the wad of tissues aside, pulled her in, and took her lips.
"Haa… Shinwoo."
"Yeah."
"…I love you…"
"Me too."
"…Every day. Every moment. You… you drive me crazy…"
"Same here. The way you come, the way you look at me—it's all beautiful."
"…I'm so happy I could lose my mind. And it hurts so much that there's nothing I can do for you…"
Tears gathered in Rahi's eyes again. It wasn't that I didn't understand. Part of me even thought it was too much to be thanked for. I'd enjoyed it too. But if she felt she was only ever on the receiving end, of course it would ache like this, and telling her not to feel that way wouldn't change a thing. Rahi was simply too kind. Maybe I needed to find some way for her to feel she could give something back.
"The way you moved just now, and this kiss—I liked those too, you know?"
"…sniff."
She was drawing the tears in all the way through her nose. I quietly wiped them away and kissed her forehead. We really had to get up now.
"Let's hurry. You said the morning membership's gone up."
"…It has, but…"
"Quit whining and get up. It's a little late to start fretting over what you can do for me. You just have to stick right to my side and not even think about going anywhere."
"…Yes… That will never happen."
"I know."
I figured I ought to get up first. When I sat up, Rahi started to rise as well and winced.
"Does it hurt?"
"N-no. My waist… it just feels a little strange."
At that I hurriedly dropped my gaze to her waist, but there was no Ailment Shadow. Moving her hips had still been awkward for her; she'd probably just startled a muscle. So her inexperience was showing. Not that she wasn't cute even when it didn't.
"Then I'll shower first. Rest a minute."
"…Okay. Th-then I'll put the coffee on."
"Sure. I'm counting on you."
"…Shinwoo."
Her voice stopped me as I tried to leave the bed. I turned, and she looked up at me and whispered.
"…I love you."
"Yeah. I love you too."
"…"
She smiled, soft and easy, and for a moment my heart kicked hard. I felt my face trying to flush and quickly turned away, heading for the bathroom. When I finished showering and came out, the rich smell of coffee filled my nose, and Rahi—already wrapped in a towel—rose from the living room the instant she saw me.
"We can take our time. About twenty minutes left."
"Okay. The coffee's ready. I'll be right out."
"I said it's fine."
"I just want to be with you."
"…All right. Thanks for the coffee."
"That's my line…"
I gave her ass a light smack as she passed, then went into the bedroom and got dressed. I turned to strip the sheets for the wash, but they were already gone. I leaned out toward the washing machine and found the sheets and my underwear already inside.
Convenient.
Humming, I finished dressing, came out to the living room, and sipped the coffee. I scrolled my phone, answered Hyunji's morning greeting, and belatedly uploaded a photo I'd taken in advance. The moment the post went up, comments started landing, but I hurriedly let my eyes unfocus. I managed to close the app without reading a single one.
I'm really starting to have trouble holding it together.
I sighed, closed my eyes, and ran through a little mind control. It was a habit I'd fallen into back when I first recognized the dominant streak in me and my head would start to shake—but I hadn't had much cause to meditate lately. These days I could feel my mental state walking a thin line.
Fair enough, though.
There was the affection coming straight at me from Rahi and Hyunji. There was the café doing better than I'd expected, and the gym running well besides. Because of that, I knew Go Yewon had started coming to me grateful and leaning on me, and that Ju Hayeong, after our play, was beginning to trust me more deeply. My changing body was part of it too. Some of it felt good. Of course there was fear as well. As the small anxiety and dread washed over me again, I closed my eyes and muttered inwardly.
I'm an ordinary person. I'm normal. I'm normal…
This was a separate matter from the emotional and sexual steadiness they gave me. It came from my own vessel being too small. I kept the mind control running as I dug through the drawer, photographed my bankbook and my ID, and sent them to Bae Jihyun. Then I searched my phone for the landlady's number, which I hadn't looked at in a long time.
It's early, but…
I could just as well call once I got to the gym, and if she didn't pick up I'd leave a text. That was the thought I was having when the line clicked open.
"Hey, kid. What's going on this early?"
"Oh, you're up. Have you been well?"
"Oh, of course. Something wrong with the place?"
"No. I know the lease was extended a year. I think I need to move out."
"Oh? That so?"
"Yes. I'll ask the realtor—"
I had been about to say that, since we were still inside the contract term, I would put in the request with the real estate office myself. The owner's voice cut across mine in a rush, and I shut my mouth.
"When? When can you be out? Can you do it soon?"
"…What?"
"If you can clear out as fast as possible, that works for me too. People are lined up right now, trying to get into our villa."
At those words I thought, no way—surely not. But what the landlady said next proved I'd been right, continuing in exactly the shape I'd expected.