Chapter 475
Chapter 475
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Translator: Ebonarch
Chapter: 475
Chapter Title: Doctor Gam Deok-bae (11)
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I was well aware of what masturbation entailed.
Touching your own... down there, your... genitals with your own hands. The goal was to satisfy your sexual urges. Which meant you had to touch yourself in a really lewd way... Ahh, isn't this just too much? It was already embarrassing enough reading about it in books, and now I had to do it myself...
For the first time, I resented Lord Ruin.
"What should we do?"
"Ughhh..."
"Lady Iris?"
But even so... I couldn't ask Lord Ruin to do it for me. Not down there... my pussy... I couldn't let someone else touch such a precious place. In the end, I swallowed my tears and nodded.
"Then, if I may."
"Eh? Ah... ahh..."
But... thinking about it, masturbation wasn't the only thing I needed to focus on.
With those words of permission, Lord Ruin climbed onto the bed. Ugh... for the first time in my life, someone who wasn't family—a grown man, no less—lay down beside me. Then he pulled me into his arms... embracing me like lovers. My face flushed with embarrassment.
"Yes, you'll become the protagonist and recreate that scene."
Today's treatment involved imitating the novel's protagonist.
Lord Ruin, transformed into Prince Siegfried, nibbled on my earlobe before reaching out to knead my breasts. Unlike usual, it was an incredibly tender caress. I could feel his affection for me in the way he touched me. It sent waves of ecstasy surging through me.
"Anna..."
"Hah?!"
"Anna, I love you..."
With those words of love, his hand trailed down to my lower abdomen... and stroked my thighs. It was incredibly embarrassing... but strangely, I didn't hate it. Whether it was the herbal scent intoxicating me or the scene from the novel flashing in my mind, I was feeling good right now.
It was like I had become Anna herself.
The only difference was that I had to masturbate right here.
"B-but... I've never actually done it before..."
"Never?"
"......Yes."
"Hmm... no helping it, then. I'll teach you."
Trust only in me, he said as he took my hand and guided it down there. Just that alone was so embarrassing I felt like I might die... but then Lord Ruin covered my hand with his. And with his hand moving mine, he caressed my... pussy. My hips bucked in response.
He pressed down firmly, stimulating my pussy, then rubbed my lower abdomen in that same position. Through my small, delicate hand... I could feel Lord Ruin's rough, firm hand. Teased by that hand, my body heated up, and I forgot how to resist, panting breathlessly.
"Haa, haaa... Why, ahh..."
Ahh... it was neither masturbation nor caressing—an odd something in between.
Honestly, from that point on, my memories get hazy.
"Does your pussy feel better?"
"Mmm... p-pu..."
"It's okay, say it."
"My pussy... haaang! I like my pussy better..."
But one thing was certain... I had an orgasm.
A ticklish torment that dominated my entire body with an awkward sensation. Losing myself in it until my mind went blank, then drifting away—that was what they called an orgasm. I only learned that after reading the novel. And now, I experienced it with my own body.
"Haaa, aaang! Finally... haaa, mmm!"
The pleasure building from my lower abdomen overflowed in a thrilling rush.
"Finallyyy... haaaang!"
Now I understood why they called it "going over the edge."
It was a dizzying experience that nearly brought tears to my eyes... but after the orgasm, what came over me was a profound sense of emptiness and futility. Like I had done something I shouldn't have. An inexplicable self-loathing left me feeling depressed.
"Well done."
But somehow sensing it, Lord Ruin pulled me into a hug... haaa, it was so warm and reassuring. The void in my heart was filled by his kindness. My tension melted away, and sleep came rushing in.
"Haaa... well, mmm... done..."
Still, I couldn't sleep here.
The treatment wasn't over, and Lord Ruin was right beside me... I needed to pull myself together.
Drowsy and on the verge of closing my eyes, I forced myself to muster the strength to bid farewell to Lord Ruin... mmph, to Lord Ruin... yaaawn, say goodbye... ahhh, what should I do? I needed to say goodbye, but sleep overwhelmed me... and I ended up drifting off in his arms.
"...done, mmm..."
The silver lining was that I woke up soon after.
"Lady Iris?"
"Hmm..."
But waking up didn't mean I could open my eyes right away.
"......Iris."
Lord Ruin's tender voice, one I'd never heard before... and his incredibly gentle touch. He was stroking my hair. Calling me "Iris" in a tone so sweet it made me blush just hearing it. Thanks to that, I had to keep pretending to sleep.
"Sweet dreams, Lady Iris."
*Mwah*
Th-that... what in the world is this?
Lord Ruin leaned in and kissed my...
My...
Forehead!
It startled me so much I nearly jolted awake.
Lord Ruin kissed me!
How was I supposed to process this?
So shocked, I couldn't open my eyes even after he left.
Did he... l-like me? The thought made my face heat up. I'd never been courted like this before; it was mortifying. No, it probably wasn't courtship... and there was no guarantee he liked me... but still! Why kiss my forehead if not? It was a perfectly reasonable suspicion.
'Iris, sleep well.'
'O-Onii-chan! I'm not a kid anymore!'
'Hahaha, you'll always be a kid to me.'
But... thinking more about it...
Brothers often kissed foreheads...
And they'd stroke my hair, calling me cute...
Maybe Lord Ruin just saw me as a little sister and got affectionate?
Recalling his usual stoic demeanor... that made more sense.
'......Iris.'
B-but he called me "Iris," not "Lady Iris." Doesn't that mean he has feelings for me? And "sweet dreams"—that's something lovers say! What if he actually likes me? All those treatments, maybe he really does it because he likes me... likes me...
"Ahaha..."
......What a pathetic train of thought.
I'd gotten a bit excited for a moment, but I took a long breath.
Had I read too many books? Lord Ruin probably had no such intentions... I felt embarrassed getting worked up alone. How could I tarnish someone so sincere about my treatment... Haa, I needed to calm down. As I sighed, Maria opened the door and entered.
"Miss, time to wash up and sleep."
"Mmm, please do."
"Then get up and put on your outer clothes... Eh?! Ah, ahh... Miss!"
What kind of day was this? Quick-witted Maria caught on to what had just happened. She started badmouthing Lord Ruin in front of me... sniffling apologies for not protecting me. But... why did it feel so frustrating? I hated how she was insulting Lord Ruin.
Without thinking, I raised my voice to defend him.
Lord Ruin would never do such a thing... it was all a misunderstanding!
For his honor, I argued fervently.
And... no matter how I thought about it, Lord Ruin had no interest in me. What happened today was probably all in my head. Feeling a bit disappointed by that realization, I sighed softly after convincing her. But... then a "what if" crept in, and I ended up asking about the meaning of a forehead kiss.
"It means unchanging love... Miss."
And... I got an answer I never expected.
Unchanging love? Did that mean Lord Ruin loved me?! W-what do I do... my face turned beet red the moment I heard it. Of course, it was more likely not... but the possibility made my heart race oddly.
"Th-that... that's what it means..."
Did I... have feelings for Lord Ruin?
Is that why I was so shaken?
I didn't know.
I couldn't figure out my own heart.
The one I admired was Lord Lucius... but I knew it was an unattainable longing. Just because I couldn't have him, I yearned. I'd never once thought of dating him. But Lord Ruin... for a fleeting moment, I imagined it might be fun to be with him. He was someone I could learn a lot from.
But was that love? Well... I'm not sure.
I was curious about my feelings too.
"But Miss, did you know?"
"Hmm?"
"Well, Lord Ruin... hehe, before coming to see you, he pulled out a mirror and fixed his hair. Even he wants to look good for you, I guess."
"......Really?"
Maria's words that he cared about me... they sounded so good, I couldn't help smiling.
"Hey, hey! Who said you could do that?!"
"Aw, Sirius! We promised to do it together!"
"Urgh... t-too close!"
"What? Are you an idiot? You need to be close to sign the contract!"
"Hahaha, the great Sirius looking so flustered!"
This kind of woman was a first. A low noble from some rural backwater... climbing all over me like this! It was outrageous how she meddled without knowing her place. But if asked if I hated it... strangely, no. Sirius was enjoying this moment.
"So, Chloe! Get off!"
"Kyaa! Hey! Did you just push me!? Hmph!"
"Guhk."
"Haha. You look ridiculous, Sirius!"
"Serpin! Please, take this woman away!"
Chloe Yates—she was a woman impossible to hate.