Chapter 525: The Dam of Emotions
Translator: RaidenTL
Chapter 525: The Dam of Emotions
“The reason I’ve called you all here today is…”
“I know.”
Choi Seulgi turned her head and began to look around. Her gaze fell upon those gathered in the small room. From Choi Eunju to Mev, it was a meeting of those who could be called Blood Dagger’s women. She had a good idea why Jang Ye Ri had organized this gathering.
While she and Ahyeon were the type to think there wasn't much of a problem, the grave expressions Choi Eunju and the Witch of the East had worn still lingered in her memory.
“We’re busy preparing for war…”
“I’ve already delegated most of the necessary tasks to that man, Lee Wanyong, so it shouldn't be an issue. The impending war is important, but I want to talk about the situation our mate is currently in. I'm sure everyone has noticed by now. That there's something wrong with him.”
“……”
“……”
Some nodded, while others seemed unconcerned. If she had to say which side she was on, it would be the latter; she thought the way he’d acted during the bloody wedding was quite sexy.
“I don't quite understand what problem you think the Savior has. If anything, aren't you the one with the problem, Your Majesty? How dare you stand in the Savior's way.”
“I simply thought some restraint was necessary.”
“We are not here to restrain him.”
“No. As his mates, we need to be more sensitive to his changes. If necessary, we even have a duty to restrain him.”
Whenever those two spoke, their words always seemed to have a sharp edge.
“Among everyone here, the one who has spent the most time with him is likely…”
“Me?”
“Choi Seulgi. It would be you.”
Mev had raised her hand expectantly, but it was true that she had spent the most time with him. No one had said it or asked directly, but many of them must have sensed there was something between her and Kim Taesung from the very beginning. Perhaps the more perceptive ones had even intuited that they had been together in a past life.
“Huh?! B-But it's me…”
“That was him as a Green Skin.”
“What?!”
Mev's expression was one of complete confusion. Honestly, it was strange that she hadn't caught on, especially since she must have heard Seulgi or Jung Hayeon call him by his human name on occasion.
“Huh? Huh-huh-huh-huh-huh?”
“We've gotten sidetracked. So, what do you think? Having watched him from the side, can you truly say there's nothing unsettling about our mate's current behavior?”
She had to think about it for a moment. There was certainly something unsettling. But to say that Kim Taesung's actions were wrong… that was a different matter entirely.
“I think it's a natural reaction. It wasn't a long time, but I can understand why he's angry… Back in the day, he had almost no friends. Even though it was brief, the time he spent with that angel must have been quite meaningful to him. Especially when you consider that angel's favorite phrases.”
‘I trust you.’ ‘I believe in you.’ Those were the kinds of things that angel often muttered. The answer becomes clear when you think about his previous life. Who would have ever trusted a third-rate piece of trash living on the streets? Who could have believed in the old Kim Taesung?
He probably didn't even believe in himself.
A lot changed after he became a Green Skin, but there probably weren't many who would directly tell him they believed in and trusted him. That angel's foolish behavior likely shook Kim Taesung to his core.
Wasn't the reason Kim Taesung almost fell for Ha Yuri in his past life because he thought she believed in a third-rate life like his? From the perspective of street trash, he had been trusted, even if only for a moment. She figured that was part of the reason he'd stupidly gone outside, trusting in nothing but a single gold coin.
“The abilities the angels possess are probably having an effect, too, even if it's small. Once he decided to accept him, that ability might have worked more effectively. The faster he grew fond of him, the greater the sense of loss would be. He acts all cool, but he probably wanted to get closer. Why else would he have taken him to the Brother's Land?”
“……”
“He must be heartbroken. Well, I get wanting revenge. I don't know the details for everyone, but most of the people here have similar memories. So everyone should understand. If we leave him be, he'll sort it out on his own. Once he's done tearing those pigeons apart, he might quiet down…”
She, too, had memories of being driven mad by revenge. The memory of losing someone precious has a much stronger impact than one might think. It's incredibly difficult to escape that sense of loss. To escape it, she had thrown herself into vengeance, choosing to kill those responsible in the most painful way possible.
It was the same for Choi Eunju; the shock of losing her former husband was enough to make her create the Spider Clan. The Witch of the East and Baek Ahyeon had also been in similar situations.
Kim Taesung would be no different.
He wants revenge, and he probably needs a place to vent what's in his heart.
“I think the best course of action is to let him do what he wants. Even if we tried to stop him, his trip to Agape is already set in stone…”
“I'm not suggesting we stop our mate from getting his revenge.”
“……”
“If one's husband is being stubborn, it is right to follow him. But not like this. I don't care about him killing angels. However, not in this crazed manner. The man he was before was a little different. From what I observed of his life in that short time, it was a struggle for survival, not a struggle to satisfy his desires. It was a struggle to live as a Green Skin.”
“Maybe so.”
“It was the same even when he had targets for revenge. He was more rational than he is now.”
“You seem worried. I don't really care if our Taesung is crazy.”
“I love him too. But this isn't for my sake; it's for his. He is being consumed by his emotions right now. Just like that monster we saw in the West. Since we have the Rings of Covenant, I can vaguely sense the emotions he's feeling, which might be why I'm reacting so sensitively.”
Jung Hayeon, who had been watching the situation unfold, could be seen carefully opening her mouth to speak.
“It might be because his race is Green Skin… To be honest, I sometimes get swept up in impulses too. I-It's embarrassing, but it sometimes relieves stress…”
“It's more than that. Isaac, explain…”
- Ahem… It seems an explanation is in order.
“……”
She'd been wondering why the hell he was here, and it seemed this was the reason.
- In truth, the Witch of the East is not entirely wrong. Blood Dagger currently holds many Seats of emotion. I don't know what the great sins are, as they tend to arise naturally. The emotions he holds are Sorrow, Wrath, Greed, Lust, and finally, Sloth. That last one is the most recent addition. A-Although o-our m-mate's mental fortitude is immense, it's not easy to contain all these emotions. It would be better to say he's become more emotional.
“Continue.”
- To put it simply, he's been continuously bottling them up. The vessel he has to contain them is large, but it can't hold an infinite amount. The dam was already in a precarious state, on the verge of bursting. In that situation, the angel's appearance may have been the final push. No, it most certainly was.
“Is it because of his race's passive effect, Sir Isaac?”
- Ahem, as expected of Choi Eunju. A quick learner. What he did was cause a small ripple in an overflowing dam. To others, it might not seem like a big deal, but human emotions aren't necessarily proportional to the length of time you've known someone or the memories you've shared. Of course, you can't say there's no influence at all. However, i-i-it's highly likely that o-our m-mate… mate felt something when he saw Michael. A sense of kinship, affection, the feeling of being relied upon—it wouldn't have mattered what the emotion was. The important thing is that our m-m-mate felt an affinity for him, and that angel threw a stone into the dam.
His words made sense.
- Of course, he probably didn't expect that the stone he threw was enchanted with magic.
“……”
- Michael's death was the catalyst. The water in the dam began to burst forth. With a massive roar! Just like that.
“So, you're saying…”
- I cannot say for certain that he is not in a dangerous state.
Hearing the expert's explanation, she felt like she was starting to understand. The gist of it was less about the revenge itself and more about the background that led to it, but the idea of his emotions overflowing didn't sound entirely positive.
“Is there a way to put it all back?”
- It's not about putting it back. It is right to release it.
“A way to relieve it?”
- Anything would do, I suppose. Getting revenge could also be a way to relieve it. However, I can't say there won't be side effects afterward. Just like what Jung Hayeon, Baek Ahyeon, and you, Choi Seulgi, are experiencing. S-s-sex could also be a good outlet. O-o-of course, this is an area that requires an e-expert's i-intervention…
“……”
“……”
- A-anyway, there's no doubt that's the state he's in. It's not so bad that you need to worry right now, but it's not so good that you can afford not to worry, either. This is a little different from simply changing. It would be most accurate to say that he is losing himself.
After Isaac finished speaking, a brief silence fell over the room. The situation sounded more serious than they had thought.
“That's the gist of it. The situation is a bit too serious to just laugh off. It's right to release what's inside before the dam collapses. Isaac said revenge could be one way to release it, but for a child, wouldn't a kind father be better than a blood-crazed one?”
Choi Seulgi instinctively looked down at her own stomach. She had forgotten for a moment. Recalling how she had fought with such abandon even at the wedding hall, it was only natural to think she needed to restrain herself a little. When she thought about it, Jang Ye Ri wasn't wrong.
What Baek Ahyeon, Jung Hayeon, and she herself were experiencing was a kind of mental illness. She had no desire to cure it. Of course, she didn't want to change, either. But it would be better for the child if at least one of the parents was normal.
A blood-crazed Kim Taesung wasn't bad, but a kind Kim Taesung was the best.
“When you said sex was an option, did you mean sex that consumes emotions?”
- You could see it that way. O-of course, this is a m-method that an e-expert can handle…
For a moment, she considered throwing Seraphim at him, but she didn't like the idea. Before Kim Taesung and that pigeon got together, watching him commit an act akin to rape would be rather irritating.
“What about fighting?”
- It's not a typical case, but for a Green Skin… it wouldn't be a bad method.
“Should we call So-hye…?”
She hadn't really thought it through before saying it; it was more like a sigh mixed with a grumble. She had always thought that the old Kim Taesung felt a kind of fighting spirit towards Han So-hye. Still, making them beat each other up seemed a bit much, so she shook her head. But as she did, she felt all eyes focus on her.
“Really?”
“……………………”
No one answered, but it seemed they had all reached a silent agreement.