Go Big or Go Home! (1)
*Before Cursing the Main God*
"What should I say to make this easy to understand?"
"..."
"Hmm~ Right, I'll start by telling you the identity I've uncovered for you."
"My identity?"
"Yes... To put it simply, you were born from the fragments of light and darkness."
"...Huh? What does that even..."
The news the Main God delivered was absurd from the very start.
That my existence was nothing more than the scraps of light and darkness... Even though I was a fan of fantasy novels, this topic was beyond baffling.
The Main God watched me panic and continued.
"My Father, who witnessed and blessed the birth of many gods in the dimension of the divine, decided to create human forms in the image of the gods."
"Human forms..."
"Exactly. Thanks to the many gods who created countless dimensions and bestowed blessings upon them, the beings born there became capable of wielding Mana or Ki by default."
"..."
"And two beings born from Father's hands watched that process."
The Main God caught their breath for a moment before continuing.
"You might have guessed it, but those two were Light and Darkness. Always acting together, they both wanted to create beings that matched their own natures. Light wanted to create the Heavenly Race, and Darkness wanted to create the Demon Race. Eventually, after much conflict, they went their separate ways... and that was when a massive explosion occurred."
"An explosion...?"
"Yes. The gathered power split and detonated. Using that explosive energy, Light created the Heavenly Realm and the Heavenly Race, while Darkness created the Demon Realm and the Demon Race, and they were born as the Heavenly God and the Demon God, respectively."
"..."
"And Father, who was watching the site of that explosion, said he discovered a small soul there."
"Don't tell me..."
I could only stand there with my mouth agape, listening blankly to the story of my own origin.
The Main God, who had been sitting on the sofa, slowly stood up and approached me where I sat opposite them.
"Father said that the moment he reached out to protect you—you, who were chosen by neither light nor darkness—you suddenly vanished."
"...Vanished?"
"Yes. And Father said he felt a sense of such intense, bitter sorrow from the place where you disappeared that even he flinched."
"..."
The Main God said nothing more, simply placing a hand on my head as I looked up at them from the sofa.
"...And that small soul has finally appeared before my eyes after all this time. Having remained missing all the while. Just in case, I checked the Akashic Records Father created before you arrived here... and there was absolutely no record of you left there."
"The Akashic Records, you say?"
"Yes. The greatest system created by Father. A super-dimensional information repository containing all records of the universe, gods, and humanity. It’s a causal law that even gods are subject to, and no matter how much of a Main God I am, I cannot ignore that system. But... a being that ignores that system has appeared. And from my position, I am in a situation where I should erase your soul right now for the sake of the system."
"Aha...?"
?
??
Excuse me???
What did you say?
Erase?
Did the word "erase" just come out of the Main God's mouth...?
So what King Yama said earlier wasn't a lie...! I met King Yama, and when he said a god was looking for me, I thought I was finally going to start a life in another world... but what is this?
What did I do wrong...?
What did I even do!
To be born without a blessing is a sin... Isn't life just too unfair!
Feeling incredibly wronged, I blurted out the words that should have stayed in my head without a second thought.
"Ah, damn it! What the hell are you talking about!"
"..."
*Current Time*
Ah... It's over.
It's over now.
No matter what anyone says, I'm definitely on the path to erasure. Since I cursed the Main God without thinking, my fate was sealed.
But. Since I have nothing left to lose, is there any reason to hold back?
Regrets are regrets, but I should at least say my piece before I die.
"What did I do wrong to deserve being erased? Is being born a sin? Do you think so too, Main God?"
"..."
Seeing the Main God watching me without a word, I became even more emboldened? I continued my lament, even using profanity.
"Ha... I thought a light was finally shining on my life... but it wasn't just the end of my life, it was erasure... Damn it..."
"..."
Damn it...
Damn it...
Damn it....
Damn it....!
Tap-
I pushed the hand that had been resting on my head away, stood up from the sofa, and shouted.
"Ah, this is frustrating, so just say something! Or just erase me quickly!"
"..."
The Main God, who had been silently watching their hand that I had pushed away, turned their head and looked at me without a word.
The expression on their face... how should I put it... it wasn't filled with sorrow at all.
Expectation.
Happiness.
It was like the look of a mischievous child who had just pulled off a prank.
"Right... You need at least this much spirit to be worth trying."
"...? What does that..."
"Why would I erase you? I have no intention of doing that at all."
"No, you clearly said earlier that you had to erase me...!"
"Hmm? I believe I said I was in a position where I should erase you?"
Hmm?
Could it be...
I looked back and ruminated on my conversation with the Main God from just a moment ago.
...
'...And from my position, I am in a situation where I should erase your soul right now for the sake of the system.'
!!
That was it.
The Main God only said they were in a position where they should erase me, but they never said they would.
No, why would you make someone misunderstand like that!
I was full of complaints, but come to think of it, I was the one who flew off the handle first, so I quickly knelt and bowed my head to apologize.
"I... I'm sorry!"
If you don't want to die, you have to apologize immediately to increase your chances of survival, right? To boost my survival odds even a little, flattery? This much is basic.
Wait... but didn't they just say they had no intention of erasing me...?
...
C-can I live?
During the brief silence, wondering if I had changed the Main God's mind, I lifted my head and made my move.
"But... does that mean you have no intention of erasing me... that you'll let me live...?"
Nod.
The Main God nodded and continued my sentence.
"I want to wreck the world... and I'd like you to help me. Hahahaha!"
"Excuse me??"
The words that came out of the Main God's mouth were words that should never come out of a Main God's mouth.
Asking me to wreck the world...
Are you really a Main God?
You shouldn't be doing that!!!
Perhaps they read my expression of disbelief at the Main God's thoughtless remark. The Main God, who had been roaring with laughter, suddenly stopped.
"A being that ignores the perfect system! My Joker, who will crush the evil plans of those who abuse the system. I want you to play that role."
"..."
"Doesn't it sound fun? It's a role guaranteed by the Main God himself."
From a fate of being erased to the role of a Joker in a super-fun scenario guaranteed by the Main God...
No matter how much I rack my brain, it's all profit for me... but I can't help but be suspicious.
Above all, I have no abilities, so what do they trust in me to go this far?
What exactly is my existence?
My birth is just novel...
"What exactly is my existence that you're going this far? I have no abilities, what do you trust in me... I'm not the talent you're expecting. I can't even handle Mana, and I can't feel Ki. I don't have the ability to wreck anything..."
As I spoke with a mix of apology and self-deprecation to the Main God who was trying to believe in me until the end, the Main God smiled broadly, extended their right hand, and replied.
"Hmm... You're right. As of now, you can't do anything. But... in the picture I'm painting, I see you wrecking those who abuse the system. It's a god's intuition, so you can trust it. How about it? Will you bet on a god's big picture? This will be quite good. I guarantee it."
They want me to trust a god's intuition, which goes beyond the five senses and the sixth sense?
No, are they crazy... Ah, they are a god, right.
A bet on a big picture guaranteed by a god!
If I don't take this bet?
Damn, I should just castrate myself!
Unless I'm crazy, who wouldn't take the bet?
A god is guaranteeing it!
Of course, I have to go all in!!!!
Go big or go home!
Naturally, I decided to take the risk and bet on the god's intuition, grabbing the hand the Main God extended.
"I'll take the bet. Go big or go home! Let's do this!"
"Good. Then shall we go right away?"
"Excuse me? Right... now? I don't have anything! And where are we going?"
The Main God said with a face full of smiles.
"To the Akashic Records. You'll know when you get there."
Huh?
The Akashic Records?
Wasn't I going to be erased the moment I went there?
Where do you think that place is, you old man!
"Ah, that place is..."
"Хроники Акаши!"
Before I could stop them, the Main God's incantation? was complete, and at the same time, a pure white light erupted from around the Main God's body.
Unable to see anything because of the light, I raised my left arm, closed my eyes, and covered my face.
Feeling that a few seconds had passed, I cautiously opened one eye and looked around.
Before I knew it, the surroundings had changed from a pure white room to something like a library surrounded by countless books.
Confirming that the surroundings had only changed into a library, I felt relieved and opened my mouth to the Main God.
"There's... nothing here, really."
"No, look up."
Swish.
I lifted my head cautiously and couldn't help but widen my eyes.
Because a doll with the exact same appearance as the Goddess of Law—often called the Goddess of Justice, whose image appeared on the cover of the Law and Politics textbook I learned in high school—was looking down at me from above.
"Gasp..."
The doll was holding scales, symbolizing impartiality, in its left hand, and a sword, symbolizing the enforcement of justice according to the law, in its right, looking down precisely at me and the Main God with a stern expression.
"Crazy... I'm screwed, damn it..."
Is there any unlucky human who meets the Goddess of Justice face-to-face the moment they firmly decide to try wrecking the world? That was me...
Can someone really be this unlucky?
I, who had just bet everything on trusting the Main God, wanted to cry, but I prayed inwardly with a firm heart to trust the Main God once more.
Ah~ Main God! Please show me just once! The ability to avoid this crisis!
Please!!!