Someday, sometime (2)
My words may be blunt, but I'm expecting some pampering.
Just like not wanting to spend tonight alone.
“You're not trying to escape, are you, Makoto?”
A shy provocation. Hina looks at me with an uneasy expression, counting on me.
'So that's it. Right now, the only one by Hina's side is me.'
Hina also feels lonely sometimes. Loneliness is a different emotion from strength.
What did that poet say to the narcissus?
Sometimes even the gods get lonely and shed tears.
'Hina wants me.'
It's happy, but my mind is in turmoil. Will this be okay as is?
Hina's heart is weak.
If it were rational Hina, she wouldn't depend on Makoto. Her judgment is clouded.
In other words, it's a bed swept away by impulse.
'What if I carelessly do something and it becomes awkward later!? Maybe our relationship will drift apart!'
My heart is pounding like crazy.
If it were Makoto, she would just think "go to sleep" as a simple lodging.
But the clone of Makoto has impure thoughts. She instinctively fantasizes about lewd things.
'There's no choice! Since the other party is Hina... I might unconsciously get aroused.'
I have to endure it decently. I can't be swayed by the intense emotions.
'Aaaaaah-!'
But I failed. Controlling the instincts wasn't easy.
'Wrong. Nothing but lewd thoughts are coming to mind-!!!'
Feeling self-loathing as the clone of Makoto.
I haven't confessed to Hina yet. I haven't even held her hand.
Yet, I'm only thinking of overlapping desires from the start. What a vulgar and shameless person.
'......Makoto?'
Hina looks up at my face with suspicion.
She was incredibly cute, making my heart stop.
I might as well confess. I want to spill everything and feel relieved.
'But that would just make Hina uncomfortable.'
Hina is taking advantage of my weakened heart. It's an unfair confession.
Let's analyze the situation objectively.
Hina doesn't like Makoto. It's because her only choice is Makoto. Because Makoto is the closest.
I can't toy with Hina's desperate feelings.
"I have a lot of work piled up from yesterday. I'll head back now."
I was trying to leave the place by making an excuse about work.
Kkuuk. But Hina didn't let go of my sleeve.
"That's not a valid reason. You were the one who kept calling me out against my will whenever I was overwhelmed with work."
The past karma has come back from Hina.
The accumulated evil deeds have caught my ankle.
"Makoto, I won't let you go easily."
What I said during the late-night meeting with Hina.
This time, I get it back as is.
"Or is there someone you have on your mind?"
Hina's momentum weakened.
Hina is cautious, as if probing a sensitive topic.
"For example, like Dr. Iroha."
An unexpected girl is mentioned from Hina's mouth. I was startled.
"Not at all! Iroha is just maintaining a harmonious relationship as a junior and capable staff member from yesterday. However, it's not beyond that."
I hurriedly confessed my relationship with Iroha to Hina.
'......Is that so.'
Hina withdrew her suspicion from my explanation.
Hina stopped with additional concern with an understanding face.
"Then there's even less reason to send you back."
Now the situation is favorable for Hina. I have no grounds to leave this place.
"Take it off."
Hina commanded me to undress. Her gaze is lustfully eyeing the uniform tie. As if trying to seize a good leash.
'......?'
I didn't immediately understand Hina's words.
'!!?!!!!?'
And I understood the meaning belatedly.
In the silence, my cheeks flushed hotly.
"Probably, I can't let my guard down while wearing the uniform. This is also an experience."
Hina in pajamas mode is free from work.
That's why she's trying to infect me with pajamas too.
"I have extra pajamas, but the size won't match. For outerwear, the size is still loose. ......No. I don't want to give it to you."
Hina only thinks about taking it off, no desire to put it on.
I sensed a chilling sense of crisis.
"What nonsense are you talking!? I have no intention of taking it off!"
I covered my chest with both hands. I took a guard posture.
Showing my skin to Hina is embarrassing. Just imagining it makes me want to faint.
'With this body, is it okay to do something so, so lewd!? I was a man before!?'
Thinking about future actual combat made me panic.
I am the achiever of two crowns: mental sympathy and physical virginity.
Eros is premature. I was too arrogant. I need to prepare my mind. Leading actively is out of the question!
"Makoto."
Hina looks at me with a deep gaze.
"You've always done what I hate."
Hina is trying to return the accumulated villainous stack to Makoto.
Slap. No time to react. Before I knew it, Hina had grabbed my uniform tie.
"This time, it's your turn to suffer."
I can't resist.
The opponent is Hina, one of the strongest in Kivotos.
Before I knew it, I was laid on the bed. The recoil made my uniform rumple on the bed.
"S, stop-!"
"I don't want to."
Hina overpowers me. She pinned me down with a much smaller Hina than Makoto.
"Hya!"
A moan escaped from my tense lips instead of Makoto's. It was due to panic. I was too overwhelmed to act as Makoto.
"Looking back, it seems I've always only seen you in your dignified appearance."
Hina stares fixedly at my face.
"But now, I'm seeing your different side, Makoto. ......Yes, I've never seen this expression before. Even if the enmity was long, right?"
Hina's fingers move smoothly. She carefully unbuttons the outer garment from the top.
'......Ugh.'
I turned my head away from Hina. I can't face her because I'm embarrassed.
"This is because you got to know me. The one who started it was Makoto, you, right."
Eventually, the white shirt underneath the outer garment is revealed.
"I was only led by you."
Hina's inner monologue continues. My heart is pounding hard.
I desperately hold my breath so Hina doesn't hear my heartbeat.
'......Makoto.'
Hina reaches for the top button of the shirt.
I unconsciously move my body towards Hina. As if pulling each other.
If Hina leads, I will take the virginity.
The wish is 'please be gentle'.
'Oh?'
But Hina doesn't unbutton anymore.
I desperately wait for the next step, but Hina doesn't move.
'......Hina?'
My heart is melting. I glance at Hina with a side eye due to impatience.
"......Ah."
Our eyes meet. Hina's face is red all the way to her ears.
I was careless. Hina is also inexperienced with Eros. I should have actively led from my side.
"Stop, stop! Just lie down like this! It's not like you have to take it off."
Hina lies next to me and pulls the blanket over herself.
As a result, it's co-sleeping. Just sharing one bed.
"Stay by my side."
Hina's voice comes from under the tightly wrapped blanket.
'......There are nights when I want someone to be by my side.'
Hina's spoiled side. The fragile side of Hina that she never showed to anyone.
'Somehow this is a mysterious night.'
This moment is warm.
I want to sleep soundly like this. I don't care if the uniform gets wrinkled.
'If it's now, maybe I can tell Hina.'
I'm going to confess to Hina.
I, the clone of Makoto, have loved Hina purely from the beginning.
'Wait 5 minutes then say it. No, wait 10 minutes for sure. Then, to Hina...'
Before I knew it, my eyelids were closing. Hina is also asleep.
In a cozy blue dream, we are together.
So we,
Spent a very intimate night.