Awakening Sadism
"You fucking bitch. So what if I played a little prank? Who the hell told you to throw a goddamn fit like that? If you'd just acted normal like always, everything would've been fine... Was that so fucking hard?!"
"Hey, hey, Ji-won! Stop it!"
Choi Mi-ri tried to hold her back while glancing around nervously, but Kim Ji-won shook her off and screamed hysterically.
"Let go! This motherfucker keeps blaming us for his parents' death, that's why!"
"Well... that part is a fact...."
At Kim Ji-won's words, the other two gave strange smiles and stepped back.
"Even if it wasn't the direct cause, you can't escape responsibility either. Carry that guilt in your hearts for the rest of your lives, you fucking bitches."
"You son of a bitch!"
Whoosh. Thud!
"Keuk!"
The moment I struggled to my feet and spoke, another kick flew in and sent me rolling across the ground again.
"Kek, kek, urgh!"
I wanted to charge at her and land at least one punch. But I hadn't eaten properly for so long that there was no strength left in my body, and the pain radiating from my battered stomach was too overwhelming to endure.
Slap! Slap! Slap!
"Huk... ugh."
"You fucker... Say it! Is it our fault?!"
"...Uup, uup, k-hup."
I should have snapped back at Kim Ji-won, who was shouting with her eyes bloodshot and bulging. But after the slap across my face, fear that I might actually get beaten to death surged up far stronger than any anger, forcing hot tears from my eyes.
"Oh my goodness! J-Ji-an, student! What on earth is going on here?!"
Right then, the moving-van auntie who had stepped out with some luggage hurriedly pulled us apart.
"Hey! Student! I don't know the whole story, but how can a girl beat a boy like this?! Aren't you ashamed of yourself as a woman?!"
"What's there to be ashamed of?! If a guy does something wrong, he deserves to get his ass kicked!"
Listening to the two women argue, I felt dazed all over again. This was a world where gender roles had been completely reversed. I couldn't pinpoint exactly when it had changed, but I couldn't help feeling furious at Kim Ji-won's words.
"What the hell did I even do wrong?!"
"The fact that you're talking back to me right now is what's wrong, you fucking bastard."
"Ah."
As if my body had finally reached its limit, the moment Kim Ji-won finished speaking my head started spinning.
"Are you okay? Come on, get in the van."
With the auntie's help, I was lifted into the passenger seat.
"What on earth happened? Should I call the police or—"
"N-no, it's fine."
"Get out here! We're not done talking!"
Grab.
"Ugh."
The instant I tried to answer the auntie, Kim Ji-won dragged me back down.
"T-that girl!"
Watching the auntie's flustered face, I...
"Haa, haa, haa, haa."
"Let's stop."
"Yeah, Ji-won."
When I saw Lee Ji-an collapse like he'd fainted the moment I dragged him out by the hand, I started to worry that maybe I'd beaten him too savagely.
"Oh dear... I don't know what the story is, but this isn't right...."
With a bitter smile, the moving van loaded Ji-an and drove off. I could only stare after it in a daze.
"Hey, we're gonna lose them!"
"Let's follow!"
Snapping out of it at my friends' words, I shoved myself into the taxi that hadn't left yet.
Vroom.
Without us saying a word, the driver seemed to have been watching the whole scene. The car quickly chased after the moving van.
"What is this? A lovers' quarrel?!"
To the driver auntie's question, we answered only with silence. We hadn't figured out how to respond.
"Tsk, from what I saw earlier that young man was quite the looker. Did he cheat on you? That's the only reason you'd beat someone that badly~."
It was a plausible excuse. The words even washed away some of the guilt. I nodded.
"Yeah... something like that."
"Thought so~."
"Huh?"
At my confirmation the auntie smiled, while my two friends stared at me with wide eyes. I ignored them and looked out the window.
"Haa...."
A little time passed. When I saw the moving van heading toward the hospital, a sigh escaped me automatically. But perhaps Ji-an had regained consciousness, because the van suddenly changed direction.
"What are you going to do now?"
"About what?"
"Lee Ji-an."
"Haa... fuck."
At Choi Mi-ri's question, the image of Lee Ji-an—beaten by me, eyes glistening with tears—floated into my mind. The more brutally I ruined him, the more that delicate, beautiful face strangely stirred something inside me.
In that moment, I realized it. Inside me lurked an ugly, thrilling sadism—the kind of feeling you get when you crush a pretty doll under your foot and break it.
"It stopped."
"Must be that building?"
While I was lost in thought, my friends' voices made me look up. A three-story multiplex house came into view.
Screech. Clunk.
Mi-ri and Ji-soo smiled and quickly approached the moving van that was unloading luggage.
"Aren't you going over? What if your boyfriend gets stolen!"
"...I should go."
The moment I heard the sly driver auntie's voice, I kicked the taxi door open and got out.
"Please just leave. I don't need your help."
Haa... fuck.
Seeing Lee Ji-an push my friends away with his swollen cheeks, guilt was the last thing on my mind. All I could think about was how badly I wanted to hold him.
"Hey, he looks like he's about to collapse. Leave him to us and go rest inside!"
"I said I don't need it! Fuck off!"
My friends ignored Ji-an's resistance. Teaming up with the moving-van auntie, they began carrying the luggage piece by piece. I joined them.
A small two-story villa with one living room and two bedrooms. The luggage seemed to be only Ji-an's, so the move was finished quickly.
"Now get out. I'm tired."
"After moving in, isn't eating black bean noodles basically a rule?"
We shamelessly planted ourselves on the living-room sofa. Ji-soo pulled out her phone and started ordering through an app.
"Haa... eat and leave right away."
Grab.
I caught the arm of Ji-an as he tried to slip away.
"Let go."
"Sit."
"Ugh!"
I gripped his wrist hard enough to hurt and forced him down onto the floor.
"What the hell is this... You think my anger's going to disappear just because of this?! Does doing this much make you feel better?! There's a limit to how shameless you can be!"
"Kkuk kuk."
"You're laughing?!"
This guy seemed to be seriously misunderstanding something. Guilt? Did we possess such delicate emotions? Well, a little, maybe. But just like Ji-an said, helping with the move had brushed it aside quickly. Right now we simply wanted to be in the same space as this pretty, handsome boy.
It seemed he still didn't realize how he looked to others.
"Hey, Lee Ji-an."
"What?"
"Do you jerk off by yourself too?!"
At my question, Ji-an's pupils shook violently. My two friends looked at me with sly smiles.
Truly, why was fate so cruel? Of all days, he had to meet us on moving day. We had been wondering which guy to pick up to celebrate becoming adults, and here he was—appearing before us with a face that perfectly matched women's ideal type....
"W-what kind of thoughts are you having?!"
As if he had read our minds, Ji-an went deathly pale and shoved his hand into his pocket.
Thud!
"Ugh!"
Thud, thud, thud....
At Choi Mi-ri's kick, the phone in Ji-an's hand rolled across the floor.
"W-what are you going to do?!"
"W-h-a-t d-o y-o-u t-h-i-n-k?"
"No? No?"
To Ji-an, who asked in a trembling voice, we answered with action.
Grab. Slide.
"Don't! Don't do it!"
I wrapped my arms around Ji-an from behind, pinning him tightly. Shin Ji-soo pulled down his pants while Choi Mi-ri found the tape and scissors she'd seen during the move and brought them over.
"S-save me, please save me!"
Riiip—
"Hup."
Ji-an's shouting mouth was sealed shut with tape. Next, I slipped my hand under his shirt and stripped it off in one swift motion, and....
"Uup, uup!"
While I held the struggling Ji-an firmly in place....
"Wow, look at how white his skin is."
"It's so fucking firm."
"Feels so soft... Wow... It's like silk."
For a while we simply ran our hands over his body, savoring the sensation.
"Uup! Huuup!"
And then came the long-awaited main event. Ignoring the squirming Ji-an, we exchanged expectant glances and began the ceremony.
"All right~ Shall we see how handsome our Ji-an's cock is?"
"Uuuuuup!"
Sliiiide....
The underwear covering Ji-an's cock came down slowly, slowly, as if in slow motion. The moment it was completely removed, we couldn't help but gasp.
"Whoa, whoa!! W-what the hell is this?!"
"This is insane."
"Is this for real?"
It hung limply like a frightened puppy, yet it was obvious that once erect it would easily rank in the top one percent.
"Hey, hey, hey—get it hard already."
I signaled my friends with my eyes while grabbing his cock with my hand.
Squeeze, squeeze.
"Wow... This is no joke."
I was still marveling at the soft, squishy texture in my palm when—
"Slurp, slurp, slurp."
My two friends seized the rest of the shaft and began licking the glans in turns, tongues darting out greedily.
After about ten minutes of this foreplay....
"W-what?!"
"Wow... This guy gets hard so fast?!"
Unlike anything I'd seen in sex ed or porn, his cock began to swell rapidly. I doubted he had a fetish for getting excited from being on the receiving end, but this was still unbelievable.
"Hey, Lee Ji-an. What the hell are you?"
"Uup, uup!"
"Oh."
I'd forgotten his mouth was taped. I ripped the tape off.
"If you scream, you're dead. Understand?!"
Watching his head nod frantically, I tore the tape away.