Being Managed by Someone I Manage in the World I Made Isn't That Bad ~Part 1 Complete~
Being Managed by Someone I Manage in the World I Made Isn't That Bad ~Part 1 Complete~
Whether it was a manga, an animation, or a game
'Or was it a movie? Maybe it was a novel...'
Anyway, back in the old days that I can barely remember now, I once had such a thought while watching some work.
『Is living in a created world, or a managed world, really that bad?』
That kind of thought that would be extremely dangerous to casually talk about in this world, though maybe not on Earth.
Anyway, in the work I was watching, the grand finale of a cliché story about the confrontation between justice and evil
Just before the final boss, who was actually quite pitiable with a tacky backstory despite being called evil, was defeated, he said this to the protagonist.
- What's so bad about my world! Did my people look that unhappy to you! If so, that's nothing but arrogance! The freedom you pursue so desperately is what took your comrades' lives!
Among all the nonsense the final boss always spouted, this was the only statement I could sympathize with.
Because the protagonist's comrades lost their lives one by two due to the hypocrisy hidden beneath the light of "good" and the indecisiveness in the name of justice, until only the protagonist remained.
- Don't insult their sacrifice! Everyone born into this world has the right to live freely!
This was also correct in its own way.
But I couldn't help thinking: isn't this word "freedom" too irresponsible?
Maybe the final boss wasn't entirely bad after all, and to emphasize that he actually had circumstances, they showed the people living under him getting by relatively comfortably without much inconvenience, which might have caused this feeling...
Anyway, I don't particularly want to discuss "the punishment of freedom" based on Sartre's philosophy.
I wanted to discuss what comes after the predetermined victory of justice.
But this work ended without showing either the hard-won freedom or the responsibility that came with it.
-(Name I don't remember)! (Ditto)! Rage (I had to remember this one)!...It's all over! We finally! Finally have freedom in our hands!
As the protagonist, whose name I can't remember, looked at the rising sun, honoring his sacrificed comrades while laughing happily about the world, I felt immense displeasure at that absurd ending.
'Could this bastard really smile like that if his falling comrades hadn't accepted their sacrifice nobly but had resented him until their dying moments? Before that, did he even take responsibility for granting such indiscriminate freedom?'
Then I thought about what might have been a meaningless alternative ending.
Maybe the protagonist compromised with evil that actually had a understandable backstory, another form of justice
Or comrades who chose evil over an indecisive, hypocritical protagonist
Or the people of the world who gained freedom gathering together to limit their own freedom somewhat and condemn the hero pursuing indiscriminate freedom
Or maybe the protagonist was actually evil, and the side thought to be evil was actually the protagonist trying to prevent irresponsible freedom
And then that thought came to me again.
『Is living in a created world, or a managed world, really that bad?』
I remember that meaningless contemplation of mine lasting quite a while, until I became deeply immersed in an adult game recommended by a friend - an adult game of explosive fap material level.
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The sequel that should never have existed
That game I created, where I wanted even Rage - who suffered because of me in almost every loop - to be happy, was finally realized in the world after infinitely repeated trial and error.
'Ah, I remember. The dream, yeah that's it'
The Shephys I met in the dream were Shephys going through those very trials, and those Shephys were ones who didn't know their true identity, holding only earnest love for Rage.
The Goddess's explanation continued a bit more after that.
"So, to summarize what you're saying, if I don't have sex, Atroxia won't function?"
"Correct"
Though I had been given the power to literally rule the world, handed over by the will of the world without any countermeasures, there was no way I - who had just been enjoying sex in Shephy's body - had the ability to control such power.
So I apparently decided.
To maintain world peace through sex, just as I had been doing until now
"Integrating the work originally meant for the world's will with what you do best, sex...I thought it was nonsense but...it worked when I tried it...haha...hahaha..."
The Goddess thought it was ridiculous nonsense at the time, but I who inherited the world's will made it reality, and to directly enter and manage that system myself, I left one request with the Goddess.
"You bitch! What? You'll erase your memory to enjoy it because having sex professionally isn't fun!? And I'm supposed to manage that!? Don't fuck with me! This world isn't your toy!!! Before that, your profession is a brothel worker anyway!!!"
The new system 'Shephy' created that way supplemented the nearly broken Hero and Demon King System, becoming a computer-type terminal thoroughly managed by the Goddess who was essentially acting as my slave.
Not being managed.
But being served and managed as if attending to a master.
"Hmm...I feel a bit sorry about that. But then why didn't you stop me?"
Though I said it feeling somewhat guilty about using what was once a Goddess as my game editor manager, the Goddess started screaming as if my words were a trigger button.
"How could I stop you! I'd be erased if you just snapped your fingers! And...I'd rather die than suffer that! Even now! You'll brutally rape me when your memories return! Like in ero manga! Like in ero games! Kyaaaah!"
Apparently, she actually tried to resist me but was forced to experience an extremely small part of what I went through while saving Atroxia, after which she submitted to me.
Not wanting to experience that again, the Goddess was acting along with my games while simultaneously working to advance the story to manage the world.
"And it's not just Atroxia. Earth connected to Atroxia will also stop functioning!"
"Huh? Why's that?"
"Hanako is there. Kisaragi Hanako"
"Hanako?...Ah! The otherworlder!"
"Yes yes. Originally you were supposed to investigate the ruins and summon the Japanese high school gi...JK! Well, she's a college student now so it doesn't matter"
Though Earth's god had generously handed over two innocent Earth people, because I resolved everything, Hanako - who should have been summoned to this world in person like me rather than through possession, this otherworldly beautiful girl (virgin bitch optimized for adult games) - remained on Earth carrying only Invisible Power, never summoned in any of the infinitely looping eras.
"C-couldn't you bring her here since you promised Earth's god? Or are you too sorry to..."
"What happens if we don't summon her? Will you kill her or something?"
"No, death would be preferable. Earth's god will manipulate causality to gradually erase the Invisible Power she's accumulated"
The events of Invisible Power being erased by Earth's god that the Goddess described corresponded to what people commonly call tragedies.
"Hmm...I see. Then once I go back...huh?"
As my conversation with the Goddess was wrapping up, I suddenly felt the most intense dizziness I've ever experienced in my life, my head spinning.
Drip drip-
"Ah, nosebleed..."
Thud!-
Right after collapsing with a nosebleed like that
The memories that had been slowly recovering grain by grain like sand falling in an hourglass after meeting the Goddess scattered violently like flour pouring from a torn sack, causing a storm of memories in my head.
"Ugh! Y-you...your memories!? Then why did you make me explain! Go back! Please don't remember, go baaack!"
Seeing me like that, the Goddess panicked greatly and, trembling like a frightened rabbit, began pressing down on my head firmly.
'Ah~ no matter how many times I experience this, I never get used to it...'
But unfortunately, the Goddess's wish didn't come true, and shortly after, I bolted upright, pushed away the Goddess's hands pressing on my head, and said to her:
"Ah, shit...you're fucking terrible at this game! Can't you do it properly!?"
"Hieeeeeeek! I'm sooooorry!"
"But we also messed up big time this round, so I'll let it slide...next time, do it right! Understood!?"
"Yes, yees! Thank you! I'll work hard!"
"But punishment for failing to properly advance the game is necessary. You bitch Goddess! For the next 1000 years!...that's too harsh, so for 100 years, you're sentenced to infinite loop punishment in the Labyrinth of Physical Transformation!"
"Kyaaaaaaaaah!!! No! Please, anything but that! Pleeease!"
"Shut up! Go become part of the Shephy system right now! Go do something goddess-like for the first time in ages!"
Snap-
With those words and a snap of my fingers, the Goddess enveloped in mysterious light began disappearing somewhere.
"Fuck! Fuuuuck! What kind of Goddess am I! You demoted me! Hey! Heeeey! Please! At least make it 10 years! Goddess-nim! Shephy Goddess-nim, I beg youuuuu!!!..."
The Goddess completely disappeared from the frozen world, leaving only her screams behind.
"Well, I can't keep this up forever either, so let's make it 10 years. Now next..."
With a body and mind become omnipotent beyond comparison to when I was an ordinary 38-year-old brothel worker Shephy, I traveled around the frozen Atroxia, collecting a certain power from just under twenty men, and inserted all the fragments into the being with the largest concentration of that power - our poor Lord Actuare, who mistakes his regression for the Goddess's ability.
"Uh...hello world?"
"Hahaha! That's quite amusing. Oh? Did I pick up this lizard's speech pattern?"
"Could you not call our Lord a lizard? Last time you borrowed Rage's body and casually called him a monkey"
"Hmm...I can't tell the difference, so you'll have to cut me some slack"
"Fine! Since we're meeting after so long, I'll let it slide! But I can't forgive giving me too many hints! Do it properly, properly!"
"Isn't that because you made the head too smart? You yourself said women are better when they're a bit dumb"
"Th...that might be? Then you should make me a bit, just a tiny bit dumber"
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Thus 10 years
After wandering the frozen world alone with that being I reunited with after so long, I finished preparing to return to the world.
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『Is living in a created world, or a managed world, really that bad?』
I can confidently answer that difficult question.
『Being managed by someone I manage in the world I created isn't that bad』
Like that
~End of Part 1~