Three Abortions, They Say?
The days were pure hell.
Even during class, she would be dragged out midway and return with her body in shambles, clothes disheveled and hair a mess. The professor, whether he knew the truth or not, snapped at her with, “Shouldn’t a student at least try to look presentable?” After that, she stopped attending altogether.
Even if she went, none of the lectures reached her ears anyway.
She was lethargic all day long. Nothing brought her any joy.
All she could do was
“Aang… ngh… ohh… ahk?!? It feels so good… Oppa’s cock… it’s so fucking delicious… My filthy cunt hole feels way too good…♡♡♡♡”
masturbate while screaming out obscene moans of pleasure from sex,
or
“Oh… ungh?! So good?!♡♡ Ahh… fingering my pussy until I cum is just too amazing…♡♡♡”
touch herself while spewing filthy words.
Because that was the only thing she could do anymore.
That was how Noah spent every single day,
slowly
dying
inside.
Then one day, after countless days just like that,
“Ah… I love you… Noah… Fuck… Ah, shit, this bitch’s pussy tastes so fucking good!!”
“Mmm… I love you too, Suhwan-oppa… Ohh?! … Suhwan-oppa’s cock is so delicious…♡♡”
she was once again called to Suhwan’s one-room apartment, their bodies tangled together as usual.
The only difference was,
“Ahh… Today… it’s just Suhwan-oppa and me… We’re all alone… Sweet, loving sex… Couple sex… I love it so much…♡♡ Ohh?!...♡”
for some reason, Suhwan had called her over by herself today.
“Oppa… Your cum… It’s raping my eggs… It feels so good…. Oh… Oho… Unghh… ♡♡”
Noah convulsed in ecstasy.
“Hey. Can’t you do something about that fucking squeaky voice?”
Suhwan scolded her for the disgustingly low, pathetic moans she let out.
“I’m sowwy…♡♡ Suhwan-oppa… Your cock… is just too… delicious…♡♡”
“Yeah, yeah. Keep sucking on my dick like a good girl.”
“Th-thank… you… Unghh…♡♡ Oho…♡♡”
Suhwan looked utterly fed up, yet he gently stroked Noah’s hair with an almost affectionate touch.
“The reason I called only you today is because…”
Suhwan’s expression turned serious as he spoke.
“Want to just date me for real?”
“…Huh?”
Noah froze, completely stunned.
“I mean… Look, after fucking you so much… I guess I caught feelings or something. Honestly, our bodies fit together perfectly, right? I don’t know what else to call it…”
Suhwan, looking unusually shy, scratched the back of his head.
“I think… I actually like you.”
He confessed.
“Ah…”
Tears welled up in Noah’s eyes.
Was this “dick-based affection” really love? She wasn’t sure,
“What the hell, why are you crying?”
“No… Hic… I’m just… happy…”
Noah smiled brightly, almost foolishly.
With pure joy swelling deep inside her heart.
“I love you, Noah.”
“I love you, Noah.”
“I love you too, Suhwan-oppa♡”
The two of them held hands tenderly like real lovers and shared a deep kiss.
Whether he actually kept his word or not,
after that, Suhwan never once passed her around to other men or made her sell her body again.
Of course, when they were alone he would order her to do extreme play like public exposure or going out without panties, but he no longer let anyone else touch her.
He even,
“Who the fuck told you to touch my girlfriend?”
would step in and protect her if anyone else tried to make a move.
Whether that gave her a sense of security or something else, Noah didn’t know. But at least she was happy.
Suhwan dressed her in the sluttiest clothes possible and paraded her around like a trophy wife, but still, Noah was happy.
When she occasionally ran into Dohyun,
“I’m Suhwan-oppa’s girlfriend now, so stop clinging to me. It’s disgusting.”
she would say it coldly and walk away.
Even so,
Noah
was happy.
The third pregnancy.
Suhwan’s child.
How happy will Suhwan-oppa be?
With an excited heart, she shoved the two-lined pregnancy test right in front of Suhwan’s face.
“Get rid of it yourself.”
That was what Suhwan said.
Noah accepted it without complaint.
Yeah. I’m just a cumrag anyway.
I’ve already had two abortions.
There’s no way a healthy baby would come out of me.
So she sold her body to the homeless again.
Because she had no money.
After aborting the third child, Suhwan grew colder and colder toward her.
Is it because I’m such a filthy woman?
To earn Suhwan’s affection, Noah desperately served him every single day.
Yet the beatings continued—slaps to the face, punches to the stomach, cigarette burns. Sometimes he would bring out a whip covered in thorns (god knows where he got it) and lash her without mercy.
Scars
covered
her entire body,
increasing one by one.
But when he would gently apply ointment afterward and say, “I went a little too far, huh?” with that soft voice, she would get so happy she nearly cried.
Yes. At his core, he wasn’t a bad guy.
He had just briefly walked down the wrong path.
Whenever Suhwan showed those rare gentle sides of himself, Noah felt a heart-piercing affection and acted cute for him.
Because Suhwan-oppa saved me.
Because he said I don’t have to sell my body to other men anymore.
Because Suhwan-oppa is the only person I love.
That was why Noah had to keep living as a woman.
Those happy days ended more abruptly than she ever expected.
The arrest of a university gang rape ring.
Suhwan, along with everyone else involved, was either taken into custody or placed under investigation without detention.
The calls stopped.
Suhwan disappeared.
Everyone else vanished like ghosts.
The phone that rang every single day eventually fell into a deathly silence.
Still, Noah kept waiting for Suhwan.
“Hic… Suhwan-oppa…”
Because he’s my boyfriend.
The man who loved me and whom I loved.
So she kept waiting.
Clutching that heart-throbbing love to her chest.
Then one day,
“…?”
Her phone rang after so long.
An unknown number.
It probably wasn’t Dohyun.
She had blocked him multiple times, but he kept changing numbers and contacting her. It got so annoying that she had threatened, “If you keep this up, I’ll report you to the police as a stalker.” After that, the calls from him had stopped.
“Who… is this?”
It was a call from one of her department seniors.
She had changed her number long ago at Suhwan’s order, yet somehow they had found out and contacted her.
The reason was the university festival—they wanted her to participate. If she couldn’t, at least come to the after-party.
In the past she would have flatly refused,
“Yes… I’ll go…”
but now that her heart had been worn down to nothing, even refusing felt terrifying.
Thankfully, she was only allowed to attend the after-party.
University Festival After-Party
Please join us.
“…I’m here…”
Noah mumbled as she opened the door to the bar.
All eyes immediately turned toward her.
“Ugh…”
If it had been the old her, she would have tried to ignore them, but now those stares terrified her.
Why is it getting itchy down there again…
Heat rose between her legs.
It was probably because of the “ex-boyfriend’s conditioning”—Suhwan and his crew had constantly forced her into exposure play and molestation play, training her body to react this way.
When she found her seat,
“Hey, Noah! You’re here!”
“Why haven’t you been coming to school lately?”
“It’s been forever. Let’s actually see each other’s faces for once.”
The female and male seniors greeted her.
The women looked at her with thinly veiled contempt, while the men raped her with their blatant, leering gazes.
Since some of them had already slept with her before, Noah felt herself growing slightly wet down there.
“…Yes, um, hello…”
Noah awkwardly bowed and greeted everyone around her.
During the drinking session, she was forced to join drinking games she didn’t understand and couldn’t participate in any of the conversations.
She just wanted to leave as quickly as possible.
Then, a little later,
“Alright, it’s time for tonight’s main event…”
The president of Noah’s department cleared his throat dramatically.
The lights went out,
then dimmed again.
A cheap spotlight used for events shone on someone with awkward lighting.
‘Kim Tae-min.’
The president of the manga club—or more accurately, the otaku club—that Noah had briefly joined before Suhwan ruined her, only to become a ghost member.
The guy who would loudly claim “Otaku aren’t interested in real girls” while blatantly hitting on her.
He had clung to her like a boyfriend just because they shared one single interest—manga, anime, and games—so she had firmly cut contact and blocked him.
“Tae-min hyung… I mean, Tae-min-oppa?”
Noah almost called him “hyung” before quickly correcting herself.
Because Suhwan had told her women shouldn’t talk like that.
“Noah.”
Tae-min walked toward her with a serious expression.
Heart-shaped effects floated across the large projection screen hanging in one corner of the bar, and a tacky ballad began to play.
And then,
“I love you, Noah! Please go out with me!”
Tae-min was still completely delusional, launching another confession attack.
A scrawny, ugly otaku and a giant with a filthy, ruined body.
It looked like a scene straight out of a grotesque comedy.
The men watched with lust in their eyes.
The women watched with mockery.
So they called me here to play the clown.
Noah, feeling utterly pathetic, let out a small, bitter laugh.
And then,
“No thanks.”
She rejected him.
Of course she did.
No matter how long Suhwan had been missing, she was still Suhwan’s girlfriend.
How could she possibly two-time him?
Especially with a disgusting otaku like this.
“I really love you! I know I can treat you right!”
As Tae-min continued to beg,
“Ooh, nice one.”
“Dude’s got balls—!!”
The crowd cheered.
Like they were watching a circus.
“Noah! I heard you broke up with that guy, right?”
“It’s fine! You deserve to be happy now too!”
“Yeah! Go find yourself a good man! Stop dating weirdos.”
More mockery and cheers.
“I!”
Noah declared firmly.
“Love Suhwan-oppa!”
Again, firmly,
“I am Suhwan-oppa’s girlfriend!”
And once more, firmly.
But,
“Noah. I heard everything.”
Tae-min clung to her persistently.
“That’s gaslighting. You were just toyed with by that bastard. He only wanted your body, that’s all.”
Again,
“So Noah, I swear I can love you properly. I swear I won’t treat you like that bastard did.”
Over and over,
“So let’s date. Forget about that piece of shit.”
he begged.
“Why are you badmouthing Suhwan-oppa?! Why are you talking shit about someone else’s boyfriend?!”
Noah protested.
“That guy is actual garbage, you know?”
Tae-min continued,
“I heard it all. About all the horrible things those guys did to you.”
Again and again,
“That’s gaslighting. He’s already forgotten about you anyway. So just let it go already, Noah. Okay?”
His ugly face twisted as he pleaded.
“No! That’s not true! Suhwan-oppa isn’t a bad person! He just made a mistake!!”
Noah covered her ears and frantically shook her head.
“I told you I heard everything! All the shit they did to you?!”
Tae-min, now completely worked up, started screaming at the top of his lungs.
“He’s right! That guy’s a total scumbag!”
“Yo, Tae-min cares about you this much, stop playing hard to get and just say yes already!”
More mockery and cheers.
“Date. Him.”
Clap.
“Date. Him.”
Clap.
The mocking chant echoed like a nightmare.
“No!! That’s not true!!! Suhwan-oppa isn’t a bad person!! He’s my boyfriend!! He didn’t abandon me!!!”
Noah kept refusing, but,
“Hey, I said I’d treat you right! I’ll treat you a hundred, a thousand times better than that bastard or any of these guys here! Fuck, even the sex! Okay?! I’ll only do it once a week! So just date me already!!”
Tae-min’s
“Why the fuck is this cumdump whore playing so hard to get?!”
shout grew louder,
“That bastard! Fuck! What the hell do you even like about that piece of shit?! That fucking trash!! Hey! Don’t you know your body’s completely ruined?! Be honest. Out of all the guys here, are there more you’ve fucked or more you haven’t?! Stop acting so high and mighty when you’re just a walking cumrag, you fucking slut!”
The insults escalated.
“A bitch like you, fuck. They say you’ve had three fucking abortions, right?! Who the hell even knocked you up?! Your womb’s probably wrecked anyway, so you won’t be able to have a normal marriage, will you?! So just date me! I’ll even marry you! Why the fuck is a pathetic whore like you acting so fucking arrogant?! Fuuuuck!!”
The mood slowly turned strange.
“Your cunt’s already destroyed and you’re still trying to choose a man?! Hey! Who the fuck do you think you are to pick and choose?! Can’t I like you?! Am I not allowed to like you?!?!”
People began murmuring and trying to calm Tae-min down.
“Let go! Let go of me!! Fine?! You’re not dating me, huh?! Hey. Everyone in the world knows you’re a fucking slut. No, I’ll make sure even people who don’t know find out!!”
Tae-min pressed a button on the projector remote in his hand.
‘It feels so good!! Pussy masturbation feels so goooood!!!♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡’
‘Sex… hehe… it feels so good… Getting my pussy pounded by grandpa’s cock makes me so happy, hehe..♡♡♡♡♡♡’
‘Please rape me!! Keep tormenting me and ruin the rest of my life completely!!♡♡♡♡’
All of Noah’s shameful, filthy moments were displayed brightly on the projector screen.
The sound coming from the speakers was no longer the ballad—it was Noah’s own lewd moans.
The stares of the crowd,
lust-filled stares,
mocking stares,
contemptuous stares,
accusing stares,
all pierced her heart like arrows. The wall that had been suppressing her trauma collapsed all at once.
The reality she had covered up with self-hypnosis filled her chest with suffocating pressure, and then—
The illusion shattered.
“Ueeegh…”
Vomit poured out of her.
Just as she thought—
she still hated normies.
